I wrote last year.
I'm the kid who cried if anyone looked at me like they were angry. I'm the one who confessed to every misdeed so that the questioning and punishment would end.
This year I am working to protect my children, to keep them safe and secure while letting them know that their safety and well-being are important to me. More important than the man I love and married, their Dad. He's mentally ill, he's left us twice, and we know we can live and not just survive without him. It was a relief to have him out of the house even if we missed him as the person he used to be before he became sick.
He's getting help, he knows he's sick, he's trying. We've recently let him back into our lives but I refuse to tiptoe around him. We won't live like that again.
Otherwise: one of my children we had to teach to make friends, she had no natural clues on proceeding even though she really wanted to. The next child has always been able to make friends, she does/says the right things naturally. How did my introvert husband and I end up with three extrovert children?
Erik at #2
My workplace would certainly notice if I went missing for 5 days. Hopefully I really told my family where I was going otherwise the children would be frantic.
Sara
Actually some of that sounds very familiar. I thought last year I had myself together and then three school districts went into hiring freezes. I was offered a job for this Fall as an actual teacher but I haven't gotten the paperwork yet and I have to make it until school starts.
I've started calling my creditors - car, mortgage, electricity. I tell them I think things are going to get better but right now things are terrible. So far they have all been understanding. I'm probably the only one who judges myself a failure or if they do then they keep it themselves and treat me politely.
Sara
That has happened a lot to me over the last three years. Sometimes I forgive myself and allow myself to be paralyzed.
At night I go to bed in the dark. I say to myself "Breathe in" and I do. I say "Breathe out" and I do. Any time my mind goes to worry, I steer it back to breathing.
I take control of little things I *can* control.
I try not to talk myself out of out-of-the-box ideas. I make good bread; maybe people will buy my bread; I can make it at home at night with my kids; it may not make enough to pay the mortgage but it could pay for food or gas.
I play mindless reaction games on the internet.
Sara
My daughter has a small hope that school will be closed because she has 4 AP tests scheduled in the next week.
Hmmm, how to make it sound appealing? A designer name? Something that sounds like a gated community or only something that cool people get? A hip-hop name? Chihuahua flu, Petunia (keeping the piggy connection), or a fancy zipcode?
Joel @ 124
Ex-masturbator - current fornicator
Koske @ 96
My daughter wants one of those (or the others on the site) though the ex-masturbator one is not allowed at school. She is surprised that the ex-Hustler one only comes in "boy".
Lori #495 - Yes the chickenpox vaccine warns about shedding the virus. When my kids are vaccinated we always ask about risk to immunosuppressed bystanders. After the chickenpox vaccine we were told to avoid the vulnerable people for 10 days. Avoiding them did not include skipping school but did keep us from church and 2 birthday parties.
Nicole @ 306 I don't know about the cutoff age. My sister is in South Carolina; she sent her eldest son, 18, in to get the vaccine as well.
We are in Maryland; it's been controversial but not among the other public school middle school parents in our county. The controversy seems to come from people who don't have children or who have children they are CERTAIN would not be at risk. I've seen things go from soaring to mud-puddle-stomped with great speed. There are no certainties.
Nicole @ 304
My nephews (16 and 13) were offered Hpv vaccine at their annual visits in January.
Sara
My nephew has autism. Nobody is suing. The kids continue to get their vaccines. We acknowledge the genetic probablilites. We also think his tipping point was a vaccine given while he was sick. When he went in for his vaccines at 18 monthes, he was running a fever. The nurse offered my sister the option of giving him the vaccine that day or when he had no fever. There was no mention of increased risk in giving him the vaccine while he ran a fever or any benefit in waiting.
In the last couple of years, my pediatrician (different state) has not given vaccines if the kid is ailing but asked us to come in another day (with no additional copay).
I got my BCG at Nursery school in Kenya. In my teens in rural North Carolina, the doctor scoffed at the idea of a vaccine for tb and gave me a skin test a year to increasingly violent reactions. Each positive tine test was followed by chest xrays which ruled out tb. Finally, when I was in college, I ended up in the emergency room with a bad reaction and the doctor there told me not to get any more skin tests.
My current job requires yearly tb testing but neither the job nor my health insurance covers chest xrays.
My eldest child got only one HiB vaccine. In 1992 it was relatively new (or newly required) and she had a strange reaction to the vaccine. She became cranky, ran a low fever, and her skin became mottled red and white. The ER sent her info to the CDC who called for further info from us and the pediatrician. When she went to high school there was drama because the school nurse didn't like the doctor's note saying that my daughter could not have the last two of the set of vaccines.
sisuile #1
How about White Dutch Clover? Mine grows to about 4 inches and then falls over. It tolerates drought and low cutting. It's great for the soil. It encourages honey bees to visit and pollinate (unless that is a problem for you).
This is a cached version of the Cornell page http://74.125.47.132/search?q=cache:_8w-vD5ZeOEJ:counties.cce.cornell.edu/rensselaer/HORT/Fact%2520sheets/fs07522x%2520white%2520clover.htm+%22white+dutch+clover%22&hl=en&ct=clnk&cd=2&gl=us
My three children and I were on the Mall. It was very good and emotional but scarily crowded.
Obama's speech was wonderful.
We protested the choice of Rick Warren as invocation giver by holding up rainbow flags during his prayer. I wouldn't say I disagreed with anything he said but I certainly disagree with his ideas of how it translates to real life action.
Not last minute but over the last 2 monthes he pardoned a few. I remember hearing that he pardoned one man and then took it back because it turned out the man's father had donated something Bush or Republican related.
rams @ #41
Maybe they are vegans?
Vicki at #38
I only remember changes to the first verse. I left a message for my Mom to ask if there were other changes.
This land is your land, this land is my land
From Lake Victoria to the Mountain Highlands
From Kilimanjaro to Old Mombasa
This land was made for you and me.
JESR at #35
Though the report says the masses didn't hear Robinson's prayer, we heard it. The sound was very low but the whole crowd fell silent and we could hear. Then about halfway through the sound popped up, we cheered, and then we listened again. It was a wonderful prayer and there was a murmur of appreciation when he reminded us that Obama is a man not a messiah.
We were halfway down the Washington Monument hill towards the reflecting pool.
I especially enjoyed Pete Seeger. I was in high school before I knew that was an American song. In Kenya we had our own version.
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